The subsequent fifty days (sequel to a post I never wrote)

Fifty days of struggle, of trying to accept but not knowing how, of recklessness and letting fear take hold. Fifty days of learning, of acting okay but not quite being all right. Fifty days that contained enough crying to make up for the lack of it during the fifty days prior. Fifty days that contained wonderful moments for sure, but also regrettable ones, and many that were both. Fifty days of excessive alcohol consumption, and appreciating how it can make you do things you wouldn't do sober. Fifty days that were.

Despite the melancholic introduction, I know it wasn't all doom and gloom, and to prove it, here's a hastily put together list of fifty things from the last fifty days that I'll take with me, through the next fifty days and beyond!

Knowing that the gluten free rocky road pleased Hannah
Having the third best score in the blue roll challenge
The sheer joy I feel each time the pen landing in the tube (hoping the used of present tense doesn't preclude further success at the challenge!)
Catching up with the Pharm girls the Biomedical Ball
Making Rosé wine
Taking photos in the photobooth at Thekla
Seeing Patent Pending live again, hearing songs I needed, and knowing far more lyrics this time
Talking to Joe from Patent PendingCooking chilli properly this time
Having a blood test
Getting the all clear from the blood test
The London Eurovision Party (especially Slavko)
Correctly guessing Levina was going to the toilets, following her, and then meeting her!
Getting Patent Pending's covers album for a reduced price
Almost getting to the end on Higher or Lower
Discovering Salvador Sobral's album
Dancing alone to Dance Alone in the lab toilets
Being in the lab beyond midnight
The pep talk from Lydia after being in the lab beyond midnight
Sending U2 a video of myself cooking gnocchi
Soraya making me realise I'm not a "sensible drinker"
Reading a 53-page paper in one night
My utter delight at Pospisil beating Murray, and later Federer beating Kyrgios
Several walks to supermarkets
The beauty of the new 6/7 branding
Buying a round of Jägerbombs
Eating Ampelmännchen sweets that were 28 months out of date
Getting to chill out at home over Easter
Amar Pelos Dois becoming chicken bites song
Photographing gorgeous sunsets
Watching old Take That videos and PowerPoint presentations I made
Laying beneath the moon
The Code being 809
Supersonic nail varnish
Creating several great nail art pieces (and keeping up appearances on social media!)
Potting two reds (and one black) in pool
Taking selfie videos while singing along to Eurovision songs with Em
Getting 37 points in a pub quiz
Ensuring I eat decent meals (even if they're microwaved)
Making up the A366 negative control solution completely by myself
Listening to Occidentali's Karma at 19:44 and becoming convinced it'll win Eurovision
Listening to Sweetest Thing, Always and various other songs in the lab
Getting incredible joy from dancing to Beautiful Day and C'est La Vie
Learning that any key excludes Ctrl, Alt and Shift
Singing I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For on karaoke
Getting a meatball marinara from Subway after missing the train
Dancing on the bench at Timepiece
Dancing on the tables at The Monkey Suit
Being accepted and listened to by various people in spite of my eccentricities
Hugs